chasing amy

"I love you.
And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends.
And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way,

although I'm sure that's what you'll call it.
I love you. Very, very simple, very truly.
You are the epitome of everything

I have ever looked for in another human being.
And I know that you think of me as just a friend,

and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider.
But I had to say it. I just, I can't take this anymore.
I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you.
I can't, I can't look into your eyes without feeling that,

that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels.
I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are.
And I know this will probably queer our friendship - no pun intended -

but I had to say it, because I've never felt this way before, and I don't care.
I like who I am because of it.
And if bringing this to light means we can't hang out anymore, then that hurts me.
But God, I just, I couldn't allow another day to go by without just getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face

is to be the inevitable shootdown."
in "chasing amy"